Abortion and The Battle for a Conscience

I recently read an article published in the UK’s Telegraph involving an artist that killed herself after having to deal with the overriding guilt of aborting her eight week old twin babies. There are so many issues to address in this specific incident, as well as in the article written about the incident. The way that the Telegraph writes about this issue reveals very clear evidence of how our society has numbed people to any and all conscience oriented feelings, and how in doing this it has taken a toll on our society, not just here in America but through out the world.

Conscience is defined in the dictionary as “the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one’s conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action”. Emma Beck, an artist in the UK, was found dead on February 1st in her apartment with a suicide note in the home. It  would be wrong to assume that this woman did not have a conscience, in one part of the note she wrote “I told everyone I didn’t want to do it” this proves to me that she did know what was at stake by aborting these babies. This is just one case, but there are many others, where mothers who have opted to abort a child and have felt guilt and other psychological problems after the fact. What this does prove, is whether it be the media or the governments around the world that support abortion, they do everything in their power to desensitize women and teach them how to turn off their conscience.

The terminology in the article reveals a lot about the way our minds have been trained to think. Never is the word “kill” used when speaking about the babies, the term is always “terminate“, which is much more ambiguous. The other thing that turned my head a little was the title that Emma (the one that committed suicide) received in the article. They called her the “victim”. Victim is defined as “a person who is deceived or cheated, as by his or her own emotions or ignorance, by the dishonesty of others, or by some impersonal agency”. Now lets examine and put in the pieces to the puzzle. Each and every case requires that the person is deceived or cheated by someone, what we have to decide is who exactly the deceiver truly is, and who the article and the people therein think the deceiver is.

The funny thing about this article is that every entity mentioned in the definition of a victim is in play. Lets take first an “impersonal agency”, in this case it would be the counselors that were supposed to help Emma through the process of the abortion and the aftermath. The article first (neutrally( implies that Emma did not receive the best care from the counselors, the story says the counselor “was on holiday” so in turn “a doctor referred Miss Beck to a pregnancy counseling telephone service”. When the doctors were asked about this they said that it “is normal practice to give a woman the number for telephone counseling when a counselor is not available”. I don’t think that the counselors are at fault in this situation, however they do add to the problem, because to suggest that getting her a counselor to get her through this will make it easier is crazy. From what I gather, in Emma’s mind she is responsible for these babies and it is a life and death situation. The only actions the counselors would take, would be to try and convince Emma that this is not a life and death situation, by telling her that the baby is not a baby, just something inside of her. When it comes to that mindset it is nearly impossible to change the mind of someone that thinks the way I believe Emma was thinking.

There is another person mentioned in this article, one who is blamed for Emma’s suicide. Her mother said “She was only going ahead with the abortion because her boyfriend did not want the twins”. Apparently her boyfriend “Dan” “Reacted badly” to the news of the pregnancy, while Emma in contrast, was happy when she became pregnant. Her mother goes on to say “I believe this is what led Emma to take her own life – she could not live with what she had done”. What her mother is saying is that Emma was pressured by her boyfriend into having an abortion, an action that she could not live with. This then casts the blame on the boyfriend, and his actions intern gave Emma the feelings that made her want to take her own life. I don’t agree with this concept either. I can see how her boyfriend could make her have bad feelings about giving birth and pushing for the abortion. Though the fact remains that she had complete control over the situation and did not have to go through this procedure.

The next entity to be pointed out would be “her own emotions or ignorance”. Her GP Katie Gibbs said “She was extremely distressed by the abortion procedure, I didn’t think she ever came to terms with it.” She also noted “She had a long history of anxiety and depression” which seems to cast blame on her own emotions. This is where the conscience problem comes into play. Could it be that since we have robbed people of any conscience in our society that they are more depressed? I truly believe that the conscience is a gift from God, and when as a society we start to mold and shape those consciences based on feelings unfiltered through the conscience, we reap what we sew. It is getting harder and harder to see where good and bad sit in today’s world. As that becomes harder and harder to point out we loose our innate conscience navigation and it starts to fight back. Almost like disorders that some have that confuse the body, causing it fight itself, called autoimmune disorders. So you have these feelings of sorrow and guilt that you were not supposed to feel (in this case about an abortion) and you have no way to rationalize between if these feelings are good or bad, so your conscience fights back and you get depressed and confused.

Now we come to the last entity “the dishonesty of others”. This is what I believe has led to the abortion and to the suicide. I must admit at the beginning of writing this article I didn’t think that she was a victim. I was wondering how one can be a victim of a suicide, and I still wonder if that is the case. I am very hesitant to say that she is a victim of the system. I think a better term is casualty. She is a casualty of the battles being fought in the war against conscience, though she is not to be viewed as a statistic. I do not think that it will be hard for you to find out who I think the dishonest ones are. It is not the doctors, nor her mother, nor her boyfriend. It is the messed up mentality that they have (willingly or unwillingly, I don’t know) all bought into. They point out all the wrong reasons for this whole incident. In a previous post I said that I think it is necessary to push adoption. It seems to me that the option of adoption is not really spoken of when it comes to the choices women have. It is almost a two option game, abortion or have a baby and live with it. Also push abstinence, if we did this more often this might not have to happen. Another thing to be noted would be a real understanding of what happens when you have sex, you can get pregnant! Everyone knows it, but for some reason that message just doesn’t make it through the right way. And lastly keep your conscience in tact. The people that tell me abortion is alright believe almost the complete opposite of what I believe. Emma said in the note “I should never have had an abortion. I see now I would have been a good mum.” Let me just say one thing, when you get pregnant you are not just a woman with a child inside of you, you are also a mom, and men you to are a father, start living like them if you are in this situation.


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